Caffeine free me

I've been caffeine free for a few weeks now. By which I mean I switched to decaf. The most caffeine I ingest comes from an occasional green tea, a rare afternoon pick-me-up (not often enough). So it should not come as a surprise, that when I made chocolate peanut butter cookies yesterday, and ate a few extra chocolate chips left in the bowl, I had a really hard time falling asleep. It's funny how the body adjusts. The bigger pick-me-up comes from the gym. I'm loving my cardio workouts, and they are loving me. I finally hit my long aspired target weight (only to eat the cookies), and so now that I've officially had the last birth control pill before my IVF cycle, which starts in FIVE DAYS, no more scales, it's just about feeling good, stress relief, and eating well.

And with that, I'm off to the gym to spend 30 minutes on my favourite elliptical, followed by some arms.

Dear Visa

Dear Visa,

Yes I did just spend $6K at the hospital. I know this is unusual activity on my card. Thanks for giving me that gold card all those years ago, it really came in handy today.

Sincerely,
Loyal customer with a very valuable fridge.

The Watched Pot

Remember the expression, a watched pot never boils? I'm sitting here, 18 hours until my scan and meeting with my nurse, repeatedly checking my countdown timer. I'm very excited, and just a tad anxious about the massive amount of money I have to fork over tomorrow as well. It may not be quite a down payment on a house, but I'd get a house. This is more like buying the dream lottery ticket if the ticket cost $6500. Or like paying a year's tuition for a program with a 30% graduation rate. It's a lot of money with a pretty high chance of coming away empty-handed. But I'm trying not to focus on that. Instead, I'm focused on all the things we did to make this shot have the highest chance of success. I'm not thinking about if it fails, only when it succeeds. I'm picturing myself in summer maternity clothes. I'm imagining multiples - like do they make strollers for triplets? How long can twins or triplets sleep in the crib together? How do parents tell them apart? This exercise makes twins seem like a walk in the park because at least I have two arms, two breasts, but I never did learn to juggle three balls. I even have names picked out that work for all scenarios except more than one boy. But that won't happen ;)